When it all comes to...I don't think it really matters.

When it all comes to...I don't think it really matters.
I can try so hard to make people see.
But every one seems to be so damn blind.
Every one seems to not have the slightest care in the world.


My past is over. It's time to move on to my future.
As long as I pay as much attention to my present.
But I can't. Everything's not the same.
I can't stay in one place for too long. I'll go crazy.


I want to go somewhere far away sometimes.
I want to run as far as i can without stopping.
Like I used to do when i was little.
But I'm frozen in place.


I want him to see me for me.
But he seems so far away.
I doubt he even notices me.
For who I really am.


But when it all comes to...
I don't think it really matters...
Every one seems to be so damn blind...
When it comes to me trying to be me...

Cry Myself To Sleep

No one seems to know
       how I cry myself to sleep.
No one seems to care
      that I cry myself to sleep.
No one really knows
      why I cry myself to sleep.


It's the pain I feel.
It's how lost I am.
It's when I feel so alone.
It's when I can't even sleep.


I cry myself to sleep,
  cause it's when no one's near.
I cry myself to sleep,
  cause it's all I really know.
I cry myself to sleep,
  cause it helps let everything go.

You Should Know

You should know you're everything to me.
                            I wouldn't know what to do without you.
You should know everything's different with you.
                            It makes me afraid to completely let you in.
You should know that I don't want to lose you.
                            And I mean that in every way.


You are some one special to me...
             some one worth thinking about.
All my fears are far behind....
           whenever you are near.
Talking to you is like talking to no other...
            it can even help me sleep.


You should know how I feel
                           deep inside.
You should know you're like no other
                            and how I love you so.
you should know it's not that simple cuz
                           I'm crazy in love with you.

I Miss You

We used to be best friends.
Where did it go wrong?
As years pass, i find my self
thinking of you.
I think of the good times
we had.
The first time we met.


Now you probably don't even
remember me.
You probably wouldn't even
care if our paths crossed again.


You were always acted like a
selfish stubborn spoiled brat.
I wouldn't be surprised if you still do.


The truth still remains the same.
I'll always care about you.
I'll always remember the good times.
I'll always think of you from time to time.


While you move on and I stay a distant memory.
And I'll still miss you.

Never Say The Right Thing

i love how i can never say the right thing.
especially to some one i like...a lot...
it's kinda weird that way i think...

it's amazing how shy i get & i just don't talk period.
very...fascinating.....silence that is...
you can learn sooooooo much from it.....

sometimes my "natural" dumb "blond" moments come in play....
that's something to beware of.....i can make such a fool of
myself....it's amazing....

i'm always soooo scared of being myself around some one...
i usually forget what was origonaly going on in the first place...
soooo......................................................

i get wayyyy toooo easily distracted.....&& eventually stop paying attention
to whatever's going on.....

SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i end up never
being able to say the right thing....regardless....

So I Thought..

We used to be so close.
Closer than twins.
We'd tell each other everything.

Now we're slipping apart.
We barely talk.
More secrets pile up.

How can I tell if
ur being honest or
if ur lying?

How can I even talk
to u without starting
a meaningless argument?

You say u've been busy,
& the only person u talk 2
is ur dad...

If u have time for him...
why not any1 else?

We're supposed to be
best friends!!

So i thought...

U never talk to me anymore.
Ur sooo wrapped up in heaven knows what
That it seems u completely forgot about me.
U always say u have these "sworn secrets"
that u can't tell me when i suspect something.

What are u hiding from me?
Does the term "Best Friend" mean anything?
U know I keep ur secrets more so over any1 else.
U know I'd do anything for u.

Ur like my sister,
and somewhere down the
line something went wrong.

So I Though....
Nothing could possibly go wrong.
We'd be friends forever with no problems.

NOW, I think it best,
we keep our silence where it is.

I'm more than worried about u.
& I really do care....
But somethings not right....
& that I can't handle.

I'm sick of fighting with u.
I'm sick of ur emotions.
I'm sick of ur absence.
I'm sick of being sooo damn
fucking tired as hell.

When will this faze of urs end?
When will u be the person u
used to be?

What happened to u?

Secret

I have a secret
that's hard for
me to tell.

It's how I feel
about you
so....

I can't bring
myself to tell
you.

I get way
too shy..

I have a secret
that's hard for
me to tell

It's about my
heart.

I can't come up
with the right
words.

I've never been
good at telling
some one how
I truly feel.