Wish I Didn't Miss Him

Sometimes I Wish I Didn't Miss Him
Each Night I Toss And Turn

My Heart Feels Empty
As A Darkness Reveals.

It Doesn't Seem To Matter
Or Process Through

He's Living His Life
I'm Living Mine.

In My Heart I'll Always Love Him,
Weather He Does Or Not, I'd Never Know.


Life Is Filled With Love
Life Is Filled With Heartbreak.

How We Handle It
Defines Who We Are.

It's How We Learn From It
Helps Us Grow <3

My Opinion On Child Abuse

Now, I don't know who reads this, One thing I need to make clear is that I am saying nothing but my own opinion on what I think child abuse is and the signs they would give off due to my own personal experience, which I'm not going to go into.

What do children mean to you? Are they just a nuisance? Or are they a symbol of joy and happiness? To me, a child is someone that needs to be treasured, not everybody is capable to bring a child into this world. Sometimes, the wrong people bring children into this world and mistreat them. There are many forms of child abuse. There's verbal, physical, mental, emotional, and even sexual. There are many signs in a child's behavior that could point to them being abused. Like flinching when someone makes a fast sudden movement like raising their hand up. To them being extremely quite and not wanting to get involved in anything. Or you wont even be able to tell at all because they'd try to hide it by acting like it's not even happening. Sometimes they'd be able to speak up for themselves, others would be to scared to, they'd let the fear of being hurt even more and keep to themselves, not knowing that it'd end up being the death of them. Fear, eats people alive. To overcome a fear, can be challenging, especially for a child. The signs are all there. You just need to learn what to look for.

Abuse goes in cycles, starting from childhood. Children learn from the adults they're surrounded by and pick up the littlest things, the bad things and think it's ok to act that way. Children are so fragile and open minded, willing to learn and wanting to know what everything and anything is. Children are what makes the next generation. If you want the world to be better, keep violence out of a child's life and teach them right from wrong the correct way. Don't yell or beat them, cause they'll only think that it's ok to do that with their kids in the future. Sometimes people can break out of that abusive cycle they were brought into and that right there is a huge start, breaking that cycle.

I'm against Child Abuse. I always have been, and I always will be.

You're That Stage In Life.

You're That Stage In Life,
I Want To Forget, But
No Matter How Hard I Try
No Matter How Hard I Fight
Each Time I Try
I Die Inside.

You're That Stage In Life,
That Makes Everything Perfect.
That Makes Everything New,
That Makes Everything Exciting,
That Makes Everything Make Sense.

You're That Stage In Life,
That's Like A Thrilling Adventure.

But You're No Longer A Stage In Life.
Not In Mine Anymore At Least.
You're Just A Memory That's
Slowly Fading Away,
And Taking My Breath Away As It Goes.
As It Continues To Fade.

I'm Not Giving In.
I'm Not Giving Up.
I'm Not Letting Go.

I'm Falling To Pieces.
I'm Fading With The Memories
That Seem Like A Dream.

I'm Back To Reality,
Where Nothing Has Ever Changed.
Where My Life Is Still Dull And Boring.
Where I Pretend To Be Someone I'm Not
And Hide Behind A Mask Refusing To Let Anyone In.

It's Who I Was Before You,
It's Who I'll Continue To Be
Now That You're Gone.
Leaving Me With No Reason
To Stay The Same,
To Stay Who You Knew Me As.

You're That Stage In Life
I Wish I Could Forget.
I Wish I Could Let Go Of.
I Wish Never Happened.

Before You I Had Built A Wall,
Not To Block Anyone Out,
But To See Who Loves Me Enough
To Climb Over It.
To See Who Loves Me Enough To 

Fight Their Way Through.

I Let My Guard Down With You.
I Took Off The Mask I Always Wore.
I Let You In.  Just You. Only You.

Now I'm Left Fading Away 

From The Light.

Now I'm Lost In 

The Dark.

Back Where I Was

Long Before You.

And You Were Nothing

But A Stage In My Life.

A Distant Memory

That's Fading Away

With Everything I Once Was

And Will Never Again Be.

Happy St.. Patrick's Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy St. Patrick's Day Everybody!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
I Hope Y'all Enjoy Every Moment Of Today And That Y'all Are Wearing Green!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;)

My Heart Is Broken.

My Heart Is Broken.
But I Have To Go On
And Be Someone New Now.

I Lost Myself In Believing
The Promises You Made.

I Lost Myself In Something
That Wouldn't Ever Last.

You're Gone And Moving On.
I'm Still Here Standing Still..
Waiting For A Reason To Breathe,

There's A Reason Why I Never Let Anyone In.
Why I Let You In, I Will Never Know.

There's A Reason Why I Don't Let People See
 Me For Who I Really Am.
And I Let You In Completely
And You Met The Girl No One Knows Me As.

Now I'm Going Back To Hiding Behind A Mask.
Only To Protect Myself From Hurting
By A Broken Heart.

I Used To Say You Can't Break Something
That's Already Broken.
Yet, You Managed To Piece Me Back Together
Only To Break Me More Than I Was To Begin With.

Half Alive To Alright

I'm Half Alive.

Dealing With A Broken Heart

And A Shattered Soul.

Everything Inside Is Broken

In A Million Pieces.

I Hadn't Believed In Love Till I Met Him.

He Left As Easily As He Walked In My Life.

He's Gone With The Best Part Of Me.

The Strong And Loving Part Of Me.

Back To Pretending.

Back To Acting.

Half Alive To Alright.

I'm Not Me Anymore.

I'm Hidden Behind A Mask.

Guarding What's Left Of Me.

Which Isn't Much.

I'm Soulless And Heartless.

I Can't Feel Anything Anymore.

I'm Not Here. I'm Nowhere

To Be Found.

I'm Lost In An Endless Nightmare.

Waiting To Be Found.

Knowing It Wont Happen.

What'll Hapeen When All Get's Worse?

Darkness Falls And Surrounds Me.

Something Evil Is Just Around The Corner

Waiting To Take What's Left Of Me.

I'm Half Alive To Alright.

When Will This Nightmare End?

When Will I Come Back To Reality?

Unheard and Unnoticed

I Feel Like I Can't Even Breathe.

I Still Get Butterflies When You Reply Back To A Message.

I Still Get Butterflies When I Hear Your Voice.

I Still Get Butterflies When I  Hear Your Name.

You Cloud My Dreams 

And I Still Remain

Unheard and Unnoticed.

I Prayed To God Where I Should Go

and What I Should Do.

All I Saw Was You.

What I'd Give To Be By Your Side

What I'd Give To Hold You Tight

What I'd Give For One More Kiss.

What I'd Give For One More Touch.

But You're Moving On.

So You Have Said.

I Don't Know Where To Go.

Or What To Do.

I Remain Unheard and Unnoticed.

The Tears Still Fall.

I'm Still Broken.

Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.

I Was Finally Where I Was

Supposed To Be.

The You Left And Pushed

Me Back To The Beginning.

It Seems As If You Saved Me

Just To End Up

Breaking Me.

I Could Scream And

Cry As Loud As I Can.

But I Would Still Remain

Unheard and Unnoticed