My Dear Friend It's Been A While.

A million things come to mind. But how I say it, hardly ever comes out right.

My dear Friend it's been a while,
The last time I called to you I was just a child.
I'm not who I was then,

But an empty shell now.
Growing in a lingering pain,
Of mortal sin.

Who am I?
What am I?

But a human being,
A lost soul waiting
To be found.

My dear Friend it's been a while,
The last time I called to you I was just a child.
Scared and alone with nowhere to go,
No one to comfort me and dry my tears.
I screamed for you in question,
Wondering constantly 'why me?'

You brought me to where I am today,
Yet I find myself still in question.
Knowing you are here,
Yet questioning who you really are.

Just a Dream

I had a dream that I was wrapped in your arms.
I had a dream that everything was how it used to be.

But it was just a dream.

I had a dream that I was lost.
I had a dream of how I used to be.

But it was just a dream.

No One Knows

No One Knows

The Secrest I Hold,

The Terrors I Hide.

 

No One Hears Me

Crying Out,

Screaming And Fighting

 

For My Own Sanity,

Losing Myself

In The Dark.

 

Wanting To Let Go

Wanting To Run

And Never Look Back.

 

It's All Gone

So Far Ahead

With Nothing.

 

Lost In A World

That Makes No Sense

Where All Is Lost.

 

No One Knows

The Secrets I Hold,

The Terrors I Hide.

There's a girl standing still,

Waiting for love to save her,

Hanging by a thread

Losing her way

Screaming at the top of her lungs.

No one hears her

No one see's her

No one cares about her.

Fading quickly

Time is passing

She cries. She dies.

Blackened by fear

Of never being seen,

For all she is 

Pure, yet evil.

Darkness overpowering,

The light overhead

Only one can get through.

Yet no one cares

To let him through

Not ever knowing

TRUTH

I'm Lost In A World

I'm lost in a world
That makes no sense.
Where love is blind,
Where all is forgotten.

I'm lost in a world
Where death is welcomed
Comforting those who
Are lost in despair.

I'm fighting my way
Out of this world
Losing myself
In his touch..

Forgetting reality
Lost in a daydream
Loving nothing more
Than just him.

Broken, Shattered

Broken Shattered
Barely Breathing
Hell Is Waiting
For My Soul

Take It In,
Leaving Nothing
But A Distant
Memory.

Rooms Are Spinning
Time Is Fading
Losing Control
Of My Very Being.

Nothing Is Real
It's All An Image
Lost Within
The Very Meaning.

I Love You
I Hate You
I Miss You
I Need You.

Shit I Don't Need
Love I Can't Feel
Nothing I See
Seems So Real.

Broken Shattered
Barely Breathing
Hell Is Waiting
So I Think...

Knowing Nothing
But What's Real
I'm Still Here
Standig Still.

Dear X-Best Friend.

You were once my best friend.
And even though you supposidly aren't anymore...
I still talk about you all the time.
I still wear the stuff you got me.
I still go through all the pictures
And watch that video of you singing
7 things I hate about you by miley cyrus.

Even though you hate me
And want me forever out of your life..
I miss you like crazy and wish you were here!

Let me get one thing accross,
I never lied to you.
I was immature on telling you
Something that happened in the past.
And the way it came to your attention
Was...well fucked up.

You know how I am,
I wont say shit to someone
Whose more than pissed.

Hopefully someday this will all blow over
And you'll realize that I never intended on hurting you.

I know you said that I never cared about you,
Yet you have no idea how many times I've stood up to you.

All this was was one big missunderstanding
And bad timing. Still it doesn't change anything.

I'll always feel you deserve someone wayy better than him.

And you, my dear friend, should know me better than to
Jump to conclusions. You know me better than I know myself.

I'll always wish for the best for you,
And for you to ALWAYS be happy.

You should know that.

You may block me out of your life all you want,
I wont do that in return.

And before you pull the bs card.

Think a moment.
Close your eyes,
Take a deep breath

And focus on what you
Want to know.

Love you always and forever,
--Despite any and all arguments and fights, I'll be there when you need me.