Now That You're Not Here

It's not gonna be the same.
Now that you're gone.
You were always there for me.
Now you're nowhere to be found.
I used to know you,
Better than myself.


Now I hardly remember you.
When you'd sing me to sleep.
When you'd hold me so tight.
You're gone.
You're not there.
In yet, you are.
I just can't see you.
I can't feel you.
Because I don't know you.
Not anymore.

Where am I?
Who am I?
Will I ever find your love again?
Will I ever gain back the faith that I lost?

Oh God. Please talk to me.
I'm trying to listen.
But I've given up all hope.
I'm lost in this nightmare.
this never ending fear.

So what do I do now?
What do I do now that you're not here?
Where do I go from here?
Only time will tell.

ME

Nobody knows me.
Nobody will.
When someone gets too close
I stray away.
I fear love.
I fear hope.
I fear him along with myself.

The world is dark.
Cold and mystified.
I know the truth.
I know the lies.
I know my heart.

My soul is shattered.
In a million pieces it fell.
Lost in silence.
Crying still.
Who'll save me...
from myself?

The pains too much.
And I can't bear it.
Each passing moment.
Each timeless count.
I draw near to my fate.
Which will turn.
In the final breath.

I see him no more.
I feel him not.
He is gone.
I left him.
To hurt.
To cry.
To live.
To learn.

random out-there thinking

i wonder. where does life go? where does it end? where does it even begin? how can u be sure how to even live a life when u don't have a chance? it's unknown. it's not a question to be answered. it's an action u must learn to make  for urself & urself only. so what's the point? there isn't one. so who really cares? no one. so y the hell am i even randomly thinking about this? i haven't the slightest clue in the world.