Hidden In My Eyes.

Haunted By Distant Memories.

Wondering If Time Would Stand Still.

Holding On All Alone.

To Something, Yet Nothing At All.

Looking Into Those Questioning Eyes.

Of A Loving Child.

Wanting To Play And Run Around.

What Keeps me Standing Still.

And Holds Me To The Ground.

Is A Hope, A Wish.

He Never Knows The Pain.

He Never Knows The Sorrow.

That's Hidden In My Eyes.

My Dear Friend It's Been A While.

A million things come to mind. But how I say it, hardly ever comes out right.

My dear Friend it's been a while,
The last time I called to you I was just a child.
I'm not who I was then,

But an empty shell now.
Growing in a lingering pain,
Of mortal sin.

Who am I?
What am I?

But a human being,
A lost soul waiting
To be found.

My dear Friend it's been a while,
The last time I called to you I was just a child.
Scared and alone with nowhere to go,
No one to comfort me and dry my tears.
I screamed for you in question,
Wondering constantly 'why me?'

You brought me to where I am today,
Yet I find myself still in question.
Knowing you are here,
Yet questioning who you really are.

Just a Dream

I had a dream that I was wrapped in your arms.
I had a dream that everything was how it used to be.

But it was just a dream.

I had a dream that I was lost.
I had a dream of how I used to be.

But it was just a dream.

No One Knows

No One Knows

The Secrest I Hold,

The Terrors I Hide.

 

No One Hears Me

Crying Out,

Screaming And Fighting

 

For My Own Sanity,

Losing Myself

In The Dark.

 

Wanting To Let Go

Wanting To Run

And Never Look Back.

 

It's All Gone

So Far Ahead

With Nothing.

 

Lost In A World

That Makes No Sense

Where All Is Lost.

 

No One Knows

The Secrets I Hold,

The Terrors I Hide.

There's a girl standing still,

Waiting for love to save her,

Hanging by a thread

Losing her way

Screaming at the top of her lungs.

No one hears her

No one see's her

No one cares about her.

Fading quickly

Time is passing

She cries. She dies.

Blackened by fear

Of never being seen,

For all she is 

Pure, yet evil.

Darkness overpowering,

The light overhead

Only one can get through.

Yet no one cares

To let him through

Not ever knowing

TRUTH

I'm Lost In A World

I'm lost in a world
That makes no sense.
Where love is blind,
Where all is forgotten.

I'm lost in a world
Where death is welcomed
Comforting those who
Are lost in despair.

I'm fighting my way
Out of this world
Losing myself
In his touch..

Forgetting reality
Lost in a daydream
Loving nothing more
Than just him.

Broken, Shattered

Broken Shattered
Barely Breathing
Hell Is Waiting
For My Soul

Take It In,
Leaving Nothing
But A Distant
Memory.

Rooms Are Spinning
Time Is Fading
Losing Control
Of My Very Being.

Nothing Is Real
It's All An Image
Lost Within
The Very Meaning.

I Love You
I Hate You
I Miss You
I Need You.

Shit I Don't Need
Love I Can't Feel
Nothing I See
Seems So Real.

Broken Shattered
Barely Breathing
Hell Is Waiting
So I Think...

Knowing Nothing
But What's Real
I'm Still Here
Standig Still.

Dear X-Best Friend.

You were once my best friend.
And even though you supposidly aren't anymore...
I still talk about you all the time.
I still wear the stuff you got me.
I still go through all the pictures
And watch that video of you singing
7 things I hate about you by miley cyrus.

Even though you hate me
And want me forever out of your life..
I miss you like crazy and wish you were here!

Let me get one thing accross,
I never lied to you.
I was immature on telling you
Something that happened in the past.
And the way it came to your attention
Was...well fucked up.

You know how I am,
I wont say shit to someone
Whose more than pissed.

Hopefully someday this will all blow over
And you'll realize that I never intended on hurting you.

I know you said that I never cared about you,
Yet you have no idea how many times I've stood up to you.

All this was was one big missunderstanding
And bad timing. Still it doesn't change anything.

I'll always feel you deserve someone wayy better than him.

And you, my dear friend, should know me better than to
Jump to conclusions. You know me better than I know myself.

I'll always wish for the best for you,
And for you to ALWAYS be happy.

You should know that.

You may block me out of your life all you want,
I wont do that in return.

And before you pull the bs card.

Think a moment.
Close your eyes,
Take a deep breath

And focus on what you
Want to know.

Love you always and forever,
--Despite any and all arguments and fights, I'll be there when you need me.

Just A Thought

This may just be,
A pointless thought.
A helpless wonder,
Where all can lose
Their temper
Or control.

What is it that really binds us?
That makes us so similar...
Yet...different?

We toss and turn at an idea,
May it be either:
Love or Hate.

We question them,
Not ever bothering
To understand....
Truth.

We love what we hold dear,
What we can't have,
Is always what we desire most....
Am I wrong?

If so tell me,
Correct me if you will:
What is love?

Or are you too much of a coward?

The term of Hate is rather different...
I suppose...it really depends on the why.
Do you ever question why you hate someone?
Is it because you hold something meaningless against them?
Is it because you want to be accepted by a crowed and think as they do?

We all have hatred in us. It's an emotion. Just like Love.
However, is the saying true...The one that claims
Love can conquer all?

Like I had said.
Correct me if I'm wrong.
Or are you too much of a coward
To put in your thought,
Your opinion?

Control

I Shouldn't Let You Control Me,
The Way I Do...
It Seems No Matter How Far
No Matter Whom I'm With.
The Thought Of You Creeps Into My Mind.
Pushing Me And Pushing Me.
Creeping Up In The Shadows,
Though You Remain Nowhere Near.
You're Voice Rings In My Ears.
Begging To Go On.
Driving The Very Being Of My Soul Out.
Leaving Me broken And Heartless.
Leaving Me In Shame And Misery.

You Said It Would Get Better.
You Said The Pain Would Go Away,
But It's Still There.
Itching At My Very Core To Rush Out
And Destroy Everything I Care About.

Why? Why Me? Why This?
Why Was It You Chose The Cowards Way Out?
Leaving Behind Someone More Fragile Than She Was When You Met Her?

I Wonder Why

Turning Tables
Twisting Tides
Remembering All
Those Little Lies.

Screaming And Fighting
Waking And Crying
Pinning Needles
In My Eyes.

Wishing And Hoping
My Love Would Die
For You That Is,
I Wonder Why.

Do You See It?

Do You See It?
The Dark Shadow Hanging Over?
Do You See The Shapes It Forms?
The Movements It Makes?
Do You See It Slowly Fading?
The Dark Shadow Hanging Over?

The Dark Shadow
Is Nothing But An Image.
An Image Of Who I Am
And Who I Was.

breaking over

breaking over

turning tides

listening to all those 
useless lies.

tossing and turning 
in helpless dreams 
wishing and hoping 
in endless seams.

It Will All Remain The Same.

I Keep Wondering
I Keep Thinking
I Keep Hoping
I Keep Wishing

But It Doesn't Help
It Doesn't Change Anything
It Makes Me Less
Than Who I Am.

When It Comes To Me,
Only I Can Save Myself.
Only I Can Break Out Of
The Dark And See The Light.

But It Doesn't Change Anything.
I'll Never Learn.
I'll Stay The Same
And Remain.

No Matter How Many
Times I Argue
No Matter How Many
Times I Fight
No Matter How Many
Times I Cry.

It Will All Remain The Same.
Unless I Take A Stand
Destroy My Past
Defeat My Demons.

With One Step At A Time.

Poisoning of the Mind

i feel like my mind is poisoned

like someone else is in control of what i think

i feel like there isn't much to do

i'm helpless and don't know what to do

i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs

but no words leave my lips.

it's a poisoning of the mind,

self controlled,

self centered.

Doing Better

I'm Doing Better Today
Than I Was Yesterday.


I'm Doing Better Now,
Than I Ever Was Then.


You May Have Torn Me Down
It Only Helped Me Stand Stronger Than Before.


Now I Need To Keep Looking Forward.
Now I Need To Keep Moving On.


Letting Go Of Everything In The Past
Holding On To Everything The Future Holds.


I'm Doing Better Today,
Than I Was Yesterday <3

You Are, Who You Are

It's better to stand out, than to try and fit in.
Fitting in makes you something you're not.
It Changes You.
Be WHO You are
Not What EVERYONE Else Wants You To Be.

You Are You:
Beautiful, Smart, Talented, Special, Amazing.
The List Goes On and On.

Why Try To Be Something Different
Than Who You've Become Today?
Why Try To be Something You're Not
Just To Make Other's Happy?

Why Even Bother?

You Are, Who You are
And No One Has A Say In That.
Just You, And Only You.

So, All You Girls and Boys
Who Are Trying To Fit In
And Act Like You're Someone You
Truly Are Not.

Stop And Ask Yourself,
"What Will They Think If I Be Just Me?"
You Might Think They Wont Like The Real You,
And Fake It Anyway.

AND

If You Do That, You'll Never Know
If They'll Accept You For YOU.

SO

Try It Anyway.
What's There To Lose?
You Being Mocked And Laughed At?
Judged For Liking What You Like?

If They Can't Accept You For You,
Then They Aren't Worth Being Friends With.

Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder what life would be like if I didn't go through all that I went through. How different I would be due to that. I doubt anyone would be who they are today if it weren't for what they had to overcome throughout their life, or what they will come to in their future. How we handle each situation defines who we are. Does it not? Is it simply how we overcome the obstacles in our path? Or simply how our actions take upon each decision? Or is it all just the same? 

No Matter

No Matter Where Life Takes Or Leads You. 

No Matter Who You Meet. 

No Matter How MAny Times You Fall In Love. 

No Matter How Many Times Your Heart Get's Broken. 

No Matter How Many Times You Fall To The Ground. 

Take A Deep Breath And Look Up To See Whose There 

To Help You Get Back Up To Your Feet. 

Get Up And Dust Yourself Off. 

No One Wnts To Live In The Past Yet 

There Are Those Who Still Do, 

And No One Waits For Them Or 

Deals With What Went Down Then. 

The Past Is The Past. 

It's Gone And Over With. 

The futures Just A Day Away And The Now Is The Present.

Wish I Didn't Miss Him

Sometimes I Wish I Didn't Miss Him
Each Night I Toss And Turn

My Heart Feels Empty
As A Darkness Reveals.

It Doesn't Seem To Matter
Or Process Through

He's Living His Life
I'm Living Mine.

In My Heart I'll Always Love Him,
Weather He Does Or Not, I'd Never Know.


Life Is Filled With Love
Life Is Filled With Heartbreak.

How We Handle It
Defines Who We Are.

It's How We Learn From It
Helps Us Grow <3