What is this?
This emotion I feel?
Have I lost my mind?
Or is this for real?
Do I even know what I mean...
When I say the words?
Am I thinking clearly?
What is this?
How can I even tell that what I feel is true?
How can I let something get to me like this?
Do I even know what I'm talking about?
Do I even know where to begin?
This wanting....
This need....
To be with him...
To be in his arms...
To be in his hold...
For how long?
How long will this last?
This love...This need.
shattered
tattered
broken wings.
blood that stains.
how heavenly?
someone whispers.
someone cries.
but no one hears them die inside.
broken
tattered
shattered heart.
a fallen angel.
a broken heart.
no one knows.
no one cares.
just watch her die.
see her grow.
shattered
broken
tattered soul.
see her here no more
once she was
now she's not
gone so far
now it's too late.
This was the last day.
The last day of my childhood.
When I wake in the morning I'll be an adult.
Finding my place in this world.
I don't know where I'll go.
Let alone who'll I'll be.
But first things first.
I gotta get through my last year of high school.
Yes i'm grown.
I've made it this far.
I'm still learning.
I'll never be done.
Life is just beginning.
The end is still a ways yet.
So I'll focus on the now.
The present.
This is my last day as a minor.
My last day as a child.
I'm a young woman now.
Whether I want to be or not.
So here I am.
Looking at life.
On how much I've grown.
To be who I need to be.
When truth comes to reality.
Yes we are all the same.
But with this.
It's different.
This isn't like me.
To cut things short.
To fallow my heart.
To listen within.
But times are changing,
and the tides coming in.
It's like seeing myself in a different perspective.
Am I getting wiser?
Or am I still the same?
How can I even tell?
I can't.
So what is there left to say?
Left to do?
Live a life not knowing when to stop & go.
Keep the pain in and hidden?
Do what I need to live the life I want?
There's only one person who can answer these questions.
Me. Through the years I grow apart from myself and the past.
And that's all there is to it.
I may not know where I'm going.
Or who I am inside.
But I need to spread my wings and fly.
Or i'll crash and burn to the ground.
It's not gonna be the same.
Now that you're gone.
You were always there for me.
Now you're nowhere to be found.
I used to know you,
Better than myself.
Now I hardly remember you.
When you'd sing me to sleep.
When you'd hold me so tight.
You're gone.
You're not there.
In yet, you are.
I just can't see you.
I can't feel you.
Because I don't know you.
Not anymore.
Where am I?
Who am I?
Will I ever find your love again?
Will I ever gain back the faith that I lost?
Oh God. Please talk to me.
I'm trying to listen.
But I've given up all hope.
I'm lost in this nightmare.
this never ending fear.
So what do I do now?
What do I do now that you're not here?
Where do I go from here?
Only time will tell.
Nobody knows me.
Nobody will.
When someone gets too close
I stray away.
I fear love.
I fear hope.
I fear him along with myself.
The world is dark.
Cold and mystified.
I know the truth.
I know the lies.
I know my heart.
My soul is shattered.
In a million pieces it fell.
Lost in silence.
Crying still.
Who'll save me...
from myself?
The pains too much.
And I can't bear it.
Each passing moment.
Each timeless count.
I draw near to my fate.
Which will turn.
In the final breath.
I see him no more.
I feel him not.
He is gone.
I left him.
To hurt.
To cry.
To live.
To learn.
i wonder. where does life go? where does it end? where does it even begin? how can u be sure how to even live a life when u don't have a chance? it's unknown. it's not a question to be answered. it's an action u must learn to make for urself & urself only. so what's the point? there isn't one. so who really cares? no one. so y the hell am i even randomly thinking about this? i haven't the slightest clue in the world.
