Never Say The Right Thing

i love how i can never say the right thing.
especially to some one i like...a lot...
it's kinda weird that way i think...

it's amazing how shy i get & i just don't talk period.
very...fascinating.....silence that is...
you can learn sooooooo much from it.....

sometimes my "natural" dumb "blond" moments come in play....
that's something to beware of.....i can make such a fool of
myself....it's amazing....

i'm always soooo scared of being myself around some one...
i usually forget what was origonaly going on in the first place...
soooo......................................................

i get wayyyy toooo easily distracted.....&& eventually stop paying attention
to whatever's going on.....

SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i end up never
being able to say the right thing....regardless....

So I Thought..

We used to be so close.
Closer than twins.
We'd tell each other everything.

Now we're slipping apart.
We barely talk.
More secrets pile up.

How can I tell if
ur being honest or
if ur lying?

How can I even talk
to u without starting
a meaningless argument?

You say u've been busy,
& the only person u talk 2
is ur dad...

If u have time for him...
why not any1 else?

We're supposed to be
best friends!!

So i thought...

U never talk to me anymore.
Ur sooo wrapped up in heaven knows what
That it seems u completely forgot about me.
U always say u have these "sworn secrets"
that u can't tell me when i suspect something.

What are u hiding from me?
Does the term "Best Friend" mean anything?
U know I keep ur secrets more so over any1 else.
U know I'd do anything for u.

Ur like my sister,
and somewhere down the
line something went wrong.

So I Though....
Nothing could possibly go wrong.
We'd be friends forever with no problems.

NOW, I think it best,
we keep our silence where it is.

I'm more than worried about u.
& I really do care....
But somethings not right....
& that I can't handle.

I'm sick of fighting with u.
I'm sick of ur emotions.
I'm sick of ur absence.
I'm sick of being sooo damn
fucking tired as hell.

When will this faze of urs end?
When will u be the person u
used to be?

What happened to u?

Secret

I have a secret
that's hard for
me to tell.

It's how I feel
about you
so....

I can't bring
myself to tell
you.

I get way
too shy..

I have a secret
that's hard for
me to tell

It's about my
heart.

I can't come up
with the right
words.

I've never been
good at telling
some one how
I truly feel.