Half Alive To Alright

I'm Half Alive.

Dealing With A Broken Heart

And A Shattered Soul.

Everything Inside Is Broken

In A Million Pieces.

I Hadn't Believed In Love Till I Met Him.

He Left As Easily As He Walked In My Life.

He's Gone With The Best Part Of Me.

The Strong And Loving Part Of Me.

Back To Pretending.

Back To Acting.

Half Alive To Alright.

I'm Not Me Anymore.

I'm Hidden Behind A Mask.

Guarding What's Left Of Me.

Which Isn't Much.

I'm Soulless And Heartless.

I Can't Feel Anything Anymore.

I'm Not Here. I'm Nowhere

To Be Found.

I'm Lost In An Endless Nightmare.

Waiting To Be Found.

Knowing It Wont Happen.

What'll Hapeen When All Get's Worse?

Darkness Falls And Surrounds Me.

Something Evil Is Just Around The Corner

Waiting To Take What's Left Of Me.

I'm Half Alive To Alright.

When Will This Nightmare End?

When Will I Come Back To Reality?

Unheard and Unnoticed

I Feel Like I Can't Even Breathe.

I Still Get Butterflies When You Reply Back To A Message.

I Still Get Butterflies When I Hear Your Voice.

I Still Get Butterflies When I  Hear Your Name.

You Cloud My Dreams 

And I Still Remain

Unheard and Unnoticed.

I Prayed To God Where I Should Go

and What I Should Do.

All I Saw Was You.

What I'd Give To Be By Your Side

What I'd Give To Hold You Tight

What I'd Give For One More Kiss.

What I'd Give For One More Touch.

But You're Moving On.

So You Have Said.

I Don't Know Where To Go.

Or What To Do.

I Remain Unheard and Unnoticed.

The Tears Still Fall.

I'm Still Broken.

Nothing Makes Sense Anymore.

I Was Finally Where I Was

Supposed To Be.

The You Left And Pushed

Me Back To The Beginning.

It Seems As If You Saved Me

Just To End Up

Breaking Me.

I Could Scream And

Cry As Loud As I Can.

But I Would Still Remain

Unheard and Unnoticed

Beautiful Disaster

It doesn't matter. Does it? If you can give your all to someone and just walk away. You never loved them to begin with. The one that held true in the relationship is the one screaming to be heard by the other. But they wont listen. They are either trying to put it behind or have moved on. Not even a single explanation. It leaves you lost in a depression that only you and time can heal and get over. You can wish and hope and pray for them to realize the mistake they made and to come back. But they wont. Not unless they truly did love you. There's that saying; "If you truly love someone, then you need to let them go. If they don't come back they weren't yours to begin with. If they do come back they were and will always be yours" or something like that i guess. But what if you can't let someone you love go? What if you came to a point where you can't even think straight and you forget everything and can't even sleep or eat or even breathe? You feel like you're nothing but an empty shell without them? What are you supposed to do? Fight back the tears. Pretend you're ok when all you want to do is cry and scream at the top of your lungs? Pray to whatever god there is for the pain to end and for everything to go back to how it was before?

When it comes to. You have to at least try to move on. Even when you feel you can't and that it's impossible. I know I can't. I know it's impossible for me. I fell. And I fell hard. And it's a long way up. I can't do it by myself.

Valentines Day

It’s the day I hate the most.

It’s the day filled with love and laughter for some.

It’s the day filled with grief and sorrow for others.

It seems like around ever Valentine’s Day 

it’s the end of a relationship.

For other’s it’s the beginning.

For me it’s flat out depressing.

I hate this day.

Nothing ever goes right.

EVER.

My heart is more broken this year than 

it ever has been.

So I’m gonna shut myself down and 

not let anyone in anymore.

Dying.

I Feel Like I'm Slowly Dying.

Like I'm Lost In A World That Doesn't Exist.

I Feel Like I Have Nothing To Live For.

Everything's Gone. Nothing's The Same.

I Feel Like I'm Not A Part Of This World.

I'm Somewhere Far Away.

Can You See Me Slowly Die Inside?

Can You Hear My Screams For Help?

Can You Feel The Pain Inside?

I Have Nothing Left To Live For.

Everything I Tried To Accomplish...

Was All For You.

Now You're Gone.

And I'm Back Where I Was.

Dying. Slowly. 

Lost In A World Of

Depression And Misery.

With Nothing Yet Everything To Lose.

I've Gone Completely Numb.

I Can't Feel A Thing.

All My Emotions Are Gone.

They're All Molded Into One.

Depression Of Dying Slowly.

I Can Barely Breathe.

I Can't Even Think Straight.

I'm Forgetting Everything.

The Tears Keep Rushing Down...

I CAN"T DO THIS

I'm Back Where I Started.

Broken In A Million Pieces.

Can't.

Can't Fight This Empty Feeling.

Can't Fight The Tears From Falling.

Can't Fight The Hopless Dreaming.

Can't Fight The Useless Longing.

Can't Fight The Feeling.

Can't Fight Being Alone.

Can't Fight The Cold.

Can't Fight Hating Love.

Can't Fight The Soundless Screams.

Can't Fight The Broken Soul.

Can't Heal This Broken Heart.

Can't Fight This Depression.

Can't Fight It All.